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Sunday, December 23, 2007Y

Hero in me

Suddenly I have 10 plus people walking in my house. All laughing and indulging in careful, small jokes. Some captivated in their own daydreaming. All being almost strangers to me. In this very place I call home.

. . . or at least for now.
I am really gonna miss this house of mine.

This soft comfy sofa. The tinge of wood covering half of the house. The icy-cold tiles on the floor. The just enough space around the house for us to run away from an angry Mum. The cozy rooms which cast a sleep spell on just anyone on rainy afternoons. The small luxuries like the treadmill, the massage chair and PS2 making my house my personal heaven.

The house itself is just a mere object.
The memories it evokes in me is another thing.

While I will miss this bachelorette pad (woohoo) of mine, I am sure it is okay as time will bring me a lot more memories to come. Can't wait for what is in store for me :)

I had a very nice dream last night and very Heroes-inspired. Well, not just Heroes-inspired but more like Heroes-sugiru! I dreamt that some people in my life has abilities. My sis was Nathan so she could fly. My mum was D.L. so she could phase through solid objects. Me? Isn't it obvious. I was Peter, so I could absorb other people's abilities. And we were excaping from a giant Dinosaur.

So I had to hold on to both my mum and my sis to allow all of us to phase through walls and soar through the air to escape from that very big and pestering dinosaur. Well, up until this point, it is Heroes-inspired.

Now, it is the Heroes-sugiru part. When I was about to phase through that wall. Wah. I did not just phase through it like it was an everyday-chore. Not at all. I am a very deep person ok?

So I was looking intently at that wall and then as I approached it, I could feel my heart beating real fast and there is this sensation or adrenaline rush inside of me. I had mixed feelings but still I walked through that wall. The scene, or how it was 'shot' (apparently) in my dream, was like the scene when Peter dreamt about him telling Charles Deveaux that he could fly and he started walking towards the open window.

And the feeling of phasing is really funny. How should I explain this. . . I felt like there was nothing pressuring me at all despite but felt a lot of things passing me by. It is like crossing a plastic tube which was very transparent allowing me to see all the solid particles I was phasing through, very light allowing me to pass by at a speed faster than usual walking. And when I exited the solid wall, I felt a slight push on my back. Despite feeling no pressure while phasing, it definitely felt lighter once crossing over.

And about flying! The first step was terrifying as I was not really good at controlling my new powers yet (how Peter-sugiru is this?), so when I stepped off that building, it was plain scary. I dropped slightly before feeling my body being lifted up in the air. It was not the most weightless feeling in the world like I expeected it to be. Maybe cos I was holding on to my sis and my mum, maybe this is the reason why, but I remember that I had to use strength to fly forward. While flying up was more of a natural thing, flying forward required strength in the form of pushing your whole body forward. And it made my vision slightly blurry, making it hard to locate the BIG dinosaur!

It was scary, but I saved my mum and sis. Too bad they are not really important people, so I dun think I saved the world la. But still, it proves I am a Peter-Hero!

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Thursday, December 13, 2007Y

A post about my Sis

I got a very erm, let us say 'expressive' photo during my trip in KK. In this photo, a lot of emotions are shown.

Love.

Admiration.

Desperation.

Enchantment.

Delusion.

Imagination (too much).

Melt-ness.

Weakness in knees.

Hopelessness.

Embarassment.

Feast your eyes.

Other than that, both me and this pretty sis of mine wasted around an hour on YouTube watching videos of Erika Sawajiri. Apparently, she is becoming a bit of a diva of late. So there we were saying this and that while watching our sweet Aya there. It made us crave for chocolates. . . irrelevantly but surely!

Other than that, both of us have a new song haunting us! By haunting, we mean serious haunting, where it plays in your mind every single moment and at one time, we even sang it out together the exact verse at the exact time! This is a song called 'Heavenly Days' by Yui Aragaki. I stumbled upon it while doodling on YouTube and saw that others were watching this. See how free I am lately?

Although different from the usual style of music I love, this song is surprisingly fresh and sweet and comfortable. And that girl is cute, like my sis. Hold your puke!

Favourited phrases of late:

"Youtube is free you idiot"

"Heavenly days. . ."

Favourited activities of late:

- Acting Lowena.

-YouTubing while reporting to Lowena.

- Surfing Rottentomatoes.com

- Disturbing mama.

Today is an extra special day as well for it is the official graduation day for a group of budding engineers of all cultures and fashions and styles in Clayton today. No matter how it went, Loretta Jie Jie is sure proud of u all! All the best from now on and I believe your future will be brighter than ever! As for the dinner you all owe me for this, I am willing to wait ok? Dun worry yourself too much over it, Loretta Jie Jie is not so particular. Hoho. Congrats to UncTan, Daniel, WooHsian, MokMok, Kevin, JingWen, WeiPin and all others who I might have missed!

Last of all, cross all your fingers, ALL OF THEM! Pray that my Milo gets nominated for the Golden Globe Awards! So proud of him~

indulged at 11:24 PM

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007Y

Life and its miracles

Finally your dearest is back from KK. Dun even try to deny this fact, for wat other reason could there be which made you hog this rubbish blog of mine. To be fond of rubbish, the rubbish-owner has got to be something to u, no?

KK was a nice place to be. Especially when you have nice people bringing you around and a comfy car to travel in. Not mentioning all the amazing home made food and a cosy place to stay in~ ALL courtesy of Aunt Alice and Uncle Leong. While I will leave the details for some other time, lemme just give u all a brief picture of this pair of lovely couple.

Aunt Alice made currypuffs, moist chocolate cake, cotton cheese cake, radish cake, BBQ pork bun, stewed pork, tofu, etc all in a snap. I mean, no recipes needed. So from now on, the official opposite for Loretta will be Aunt Alice.

Uncle Leong has a lot of very, erm uncle-like interests, initially in rearing Koi fish, then dogs, then now to Bonsai and China-styled vases, crystals, decos and a statues~ I mean, a rough count revealed around 16 vases of sizes big and small just in the living room area.

A home-y home-y stay. So we all gained approximately 3 kgs in these 7 days!

Another great news! There is a new addition to the LO Family! Oooh, I got a new baby cousin who is just so darn cute I could kiss Milo . . . . irrelevantly? Haha! Her name is Giovina Gilbert Wong and of cos I hope she wont grow up to resemble a certain other person within the same family with a similar sounding name and of course, I hope this statement is just not too obvious.

Well, the funny thing about a baby is, he or she can really melt the coldest of hearts. Hard to put in words yet so strong a feeling. Seeing a baby is like looking at a miracle and to see such a miracle in front of you, one cant help but feel that there is really hope in this world. I cant help feeling amused. A baby, a new life, is brought into this world.

As I looked at those tiny delicate features, I cant help but be impressed by the wonders of life. The small fingers reaching into the air. The powdery soft skin. Those kicking legs so fragile and tiny. Those curious eyes ever so innocent. The small actions - yawning, sneezing, crying - that bring smiles upon faces.

I am not sure how I could convey this correctly. Despite everything I learn in Genetics regarding development and all the genes involved, I am sure there is something more than that as I watch those rolling eyes and the tiny sigh she let out. There must be something more.

As things become more concrete and explained in cold text in this world, baby Giovina reminded me that magic and miracles still exist and can almost always be seen in the smallest wonders in our everydays, as long as we take the time to obseve and to believe.

indulged at 1:18 AM

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Wednesday, December 05, 2007Y

GLAY on.

I just watched Glay "Love is Beautiful" Arena Tour 2007 and what can I say? It was incredible and once again, put me on cloud nine. In my usual post-Glay state where I become dreamy as I start uttering about this burning desire of mine to go watch them live, slightly depressed as I become more immersed in this desire of mine, touched as I recall in my mind all those beautiful moments and lyrics becoming one, thankful as I reflect on what they sang to me and encouraged as if I had just been given a pat on the back by these fellas who are just so far away.

It may sound a bit exaggerated but it is true for they have helped me so much as I live through the tough everydays.
when I am stressed, Pure Soul is there to let me release everything along with Teru's voice.
When I am depressed, Hitohira no Jiyuu is there to encourage me and help me be stronger.
When I am scared, Koukai is there to tell me to keep on walking in all weathers.
When I am unsure of myself, Subete ga Ai Datta is there to remind me that I should make my own life shine.
When I am bored, Giant Strong Faust Superstar never fails to make me grin silly.

All the songs that fill me with emotions and allowed me to develop an optimistic perspective on things in life.
Dramatic as it may seem, I can't thank them enough.

Tonight I am just overwhelmed by the influence they have in me as I was mesmerized by their latest performance an hour ago. I haven't watched their lives for some time. And then suddenly, this came and now here I am all emotional.

I swear I would have cried if I were there and just knowing that they might be somewhere near me, I'd cry again.

The live was a great one. Started off with Mirror, which had always been my favourite but performed live, it was so much better. Immediately, I was touched by how much more improved Teru's voice was from last time. The following songs were new and full of energy making it fun and allowed me to immerse deeper into this live! Then came the new ballads of which Natsuoto and Bokutachi no Shouhai made me speechless the entire performance. I didn't want to miss a single note. Both these songs have really powerful lyrics and reminded me of the time when I walked back alone from uni, while trying to forget about the mountains of assignments!

Lone Wolf was a great new song and it made me so proud of Glay. Ok, maybe they dun even know but I felt proud! More Than Love was amazing despite being such an old song. This is the magic of Glay I guess, they bring back the magic of the good old times. I must say that I adored Jiro in Shutter Speed no Theme! He was just so cute prancing around with his bass, strumming so hard u can see the strings shaking violently on his bass, his serious expression, his head banging and more jumping and swinging! It was a blast! And Teru jumps so high! I wish I could reach half of that!

Of course, in the end, there was Beautiful Dreamer and Layla. The ending song always makes fans sad and tears start welling up in their eyes. But when I listened to Layla, I just felt touched and a sense of gratitude. Well, I remember the meaning of this song, and to listen to it from him, it was just. . . . so powerful. It made me speechless and for a moment, I wanted to cry as well!

The encore sessions were terrific. Kodou, my first time watching it live, was great. This is another song which had been accompanying me through some of the hard days back in uni this year. So it was emotional listening to it just now. Teru forgetting the lyrics during Think About My Daughter was so funny. Love him. Acid Head and the others were plain great!! Relived the Glay moment all over again in just 3 hours.

When the DVD ended, I was half dreading it already. I didn't want it to end.

The chances of me ever attending any of their concerts are low, I admit. It breaks my heart.

If a DVD of their live watched from a small laptop screen could make me feel this much and so real, I wonder what will happen if I were able to be there in person one of these days.

After all, rather than blaming the whole of the world for not being able to be there ever, I would rather be a Beautiful Dreamer.

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Tuesday, December 04, 2007Y

Lame Sis

After a night of suppers over and over again with a number of accomplices, I am now calm enough to blog. Having nothing much to do over here, I re-watched HEROES Season 1 again. And yet again, stuck with my stupid sis. So as u might have suspected, we cracked a lot of lame jokes. So here i am now, inspired to record some of them here.

Lame Joke #1

(Sylar cuts Peter's head and the scene switches to show a few drops of blood and a bundle of Peter's hair on the floor)
Me: Wah! Cannot! The hair!
Sis: I want.
Me: . . . I want also.

Lame Joke #2

(Peter was pushed off a building by Claude and lands and damages a cab)
Sis: That must be the cab Suresh was driving in. Cos everything is connected and you see, after that you never see him driving a cab anymore.
Me: I think so too.

(The cab resurfaces after 3 hours )
Sis: Oh, he had it repaired. So fast.

Lame Joke #3

Sis: (Motions a crooked mouth) See, I am Peter.
Me: He didn't get a stroke.

Lame Joke #4

Me: Look at their eyes, their eyebrows. So similar rite, Peter, Nathan and their mum.
Sis: Ya lo. Oh!! Maybe it is our destiny as well! See, our eyebrows are so DARK!
Me: Oh no, save the cheerleader?
Sis: Dun wan. Dun wanna save her.
(For some reasons. . . haha)

Lame Joke #5

Sis: Hoiyo! I want them to all fight together alongside each other like, like. . . Sailormoon!
Me: Yer, dun wan! So disgusting.
Sis: Then Peter will be like, "Ali Larter beat up that, Hiro kill that". Then in the end, Peter will be like. . . er . .
Me: (sings some self composed opera-song)
Sis: Exactly!!

Okay enough for now. Realized it is a bit tarnishing for my image. But I have nothing to do here!!

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Monday, December 03, 2007Y

Angry as I am

Suddenly I feel very angry today. I mean it is not really sudden, erm it had been there for a while. I managed to suppress it, thus erasing it gradually. It is nothing serious and you would probably think that I was jus being a big stupid baby, crying over spilt milk.

But.

What if it was the LAST BIG, DELICIOUS, CARAMEL-FLAVOURED 1000 L BUCKET of milk?

Argghh! I cannot hold it anymore!

I mean. To fall sick during the LAST and ONLY shopping day in Thailand! How CUTE can that be!

In the midst of all the shopping-buzz and eye-candies, suddenly dear Me felt dizzy and slightly cold. Then real cold. Then faint. Then I vomited. Then I was ushered to a clinic. Then I was given an anti-vomit tablet. Then it made me drowzy. Then I slept.

Anyone knows what 'bummer' means?
It means, being ushered to a clinic in a wheelchair with hordes of people looking and getting a treatment which makes u too drowsy to shop while all the prospective investments in all those shops looked back at you with thier puppy dog eyes.

Ergh. . . The worst part? Oh, i mean 'parts'?

1) Amy and SiewChin were there. So, it means Amy will be announcing to Olivia. And oh no (!), SiewChin will make sure this piece of memory stays around for a LONG LONG time. In fact, I remember something like this:

Amy: Then Lorenta vomit again how?
SC: Then no wheelchair how?

2) Then WenJi paraded her Mount Everest of new stuffs while I continued being pathetic with my Bukit Bendera of new stuffs.

3) If only I didn't take the medicine, I might not be drowsy at all. And the attack will go on! But I might vomit again and the Worst Part #1 joke might be worse.

4) After that urgh, SLEEP in Platinum, I was healthy as a cow.

This is so so sad. But through this experience, I learnt that Thai people are actually really nice and their service was terrific in handling a sick person like me.

Okay I am still a bit angry at the turn of events but oh well, just let them laugh. I dun really care. . . . that much. Hmph.

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My DearDear

Okay, I admit to favouring piano-people but FAVOUR is the most powerful word to be used to describe this affection of mine. Cos I just WATCH them more often over on YouTube, TALK about them more often with some unsuspecting friends, SEND people like Steve some links to them, THINK about them a bit more every now and then.

But that is just about it! That is all! Seriously. . . . .

Anyway, this affection influenced me enough to get home earlier on Monday night to catch my latest DearDear (kekeke) on the National Geographic Channel. What is so special about him? Well, I now present to the important people in my world (if I have not done so ady. . . .), my Marc Yu (click here).

Isn't he just plain cute?

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Sunday, December 02, 2007Y

RedBox Birthday Old-Fashioned Style

This is a season of birthdays!

Well for the first time in my life, I have had two mini celebrations of my very own birthday in November which is a month before my birthday itself! Which is not a bad thing and definitely not something I would complain about! After all, I am turning 21 this year. Anything more to complain about other than the fact that I am gonna be 21! The two BIG candles will be persisting from now on.

First of all, on the 27th of Nov, I had a surprise. It was a surprise surprise as althought both expressed the NEED or IMPORTANCE of me being there on that day, I didn't suspect a single thing. Why? Cos one of them is 38 Elaine and the other is the more-38 KangNing. And being 38s, I usually dun question their insane requests as there is usually no reason behind them.

But it was great when I went into that tiny RedBox Room and found a cute little chocolate basket cake with a very very old-fashioned Happy Birthday Song playing. It was so touching and I swear I must have looked quite idiotic at that moment.

Nevertheless, it was such a happy moment as I will be parting with my Dar-Group! See, we formed this group a few months ago. Elaine's chinese name is Ling, so she tot it would be appropriate to call her Dar-Ling. KangNing will be Dar-Ning. But then, I would be Dar-Henn! That is so unfair so I din care, I merajuk-ed and insisted on it being Dar+surname instead. So now, Elaine is Dar-Yap, KangNing is Dar-Pang and I am Dar-Lo. Fair rite?

This is the Happy Birthday Song dedicated to yours truly. Is it wrong to call it old-fashioned?!

A tiny little cute chocolate basket cake from two tiny little cute friends to the tiny little cute Me. I am a poetic being.

The OCEAN of people trying to take pictures with the birthday gal.

Although it wasn't anything big nor was there a lot of people but it was perfect enough. And it kinda breaks my heart to know that we might not be hanging out as much next year. Nevertheless, I shall preserve my MSN-annoyance to you all :)

This is th FurryBag I got for my birthday from Elaine, KangNing and QBee. So sweet of them. And before u say 'vain' or 'yucks' just consider that this might be the last time we indulge in self-portraiting together for a long long time :P Elaine? She is enjoying some 80's Chinese song I think. . .

A scene I would never forget. The scenario of my very first 21st Birthday Party with my Dar-Yap and Dar-Pang.

Now that I am back in Sandakan and knowing that I will be migrating soon from this hometown of mine, I couldnt help loving it more here and have thus, exhausted my camera quite a bit in an attempt to capture all that I can while I am here. My Aunt Bin treated me to a simple Chinese dinner that nite as she wont be here during my birthday so up till now, I have had 2 birthday celebrations and counting. . . .

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